Stitching Us Together: Part 4
Almost one year later, after my first visit to Haiti, and just before Britt’s second, we began the adoption process with Esther’s older brother, Moise. I had fallen head-over-heels in love with him the moment I laid eyes on his sweet face. I wanted to protect him, I wanted to be near him. It was like I was starving just to see them both and soaked them in for days while I was there.
And I came back heartbroken.
It was the same with Moise. God set his purpose in my heart and I couldn’t be satisfied until it came to be.
(There is, however, one more purpose; one more loose-end and unfinished plan that still is in formation. And I long for the day I can see what God will do with this unnamed child. Because my heart beats and yearns for him still…)
And here we are, almost 3 years later, at the bitter end of this adoption process. The wheels still seem to turn too slow and time ticks by as I watch these precious children grow, both near and far.
About a month before Moise’s 11th birthday, we found out, once more, that without any planning or foresight WHATSOEVER, another miracle had occurred.
This particular miracle was prophesied to happen two weeks before we knew of its existence. My kindred spirit in Haiti…My Sheelove…told me I was pregnant. God gave him this vision in a dream, but I laughed it off because there was no logical way that could be true.
Against all odds, (and after a mean stomach flu), I found out Sheelove was right!!
I am now 20 weeks pregnant with our little baby girl.
Of course, I’m a little worried about how my body will handle this and if our girl will be okay throughout it all. Already, I know she is more quiet and timid than Ethan was.
But isn’t that God’s way with us all?
Our entire journey has been one where I’ve had anxiety over and over and brought it to God to receive his peace. My faith has grown and strengthened like a well-worked muscle.
In light of this new bend in the road, I lean on what I know.
- God is the only one who can piece together a family.
- God’s plans are so much better than my own.
Has He not proven to be more than trustworthy?
With ever step of faith over the years, He has built us up and fortified our walls and even Britt’s job. The little details of our lives have been taken care of without fail.
I praise you, Jesus! I thank you, Jesus, because my life is an example of your unfailing faithfulness. Our family is a testimony of your grace and mercy and provision. Our very lives are evidence of how we’ve never been in control, but of how attentive; how present You are.
You will never fail…and I really do trust You.
Some Truth in Light of All This:
“My thoughts are completely different from yours,’ says the Lord, ‘And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine. For just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my was higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts.” Isaiah 55:8-9 NLT
“For since the world began, no ear has heard, and no eye has seen a God like you, who works for those who wait for him!…we are all infected and impure with sin. When we proudly display our righteous deeds, we find they are but filthy rags.”
Isaiah 64:4, 6 NLT
“So humble yourselves under the mighty power of God and in his good time he will honor you. Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about what happens to you.” 1 Peter 5:6-7 NLT
“This happened because Abraham believed in the God who brings the dead back to life and who brings into existence what didn’t exist before.” Romans 4:17 NLT
“And I pray that Christ will be more and more at home in your hearts as you trust in him. May your roots go down deep into the soil of God’s marvelous love. And may you have the power to understand, as all God’s people should, how wide, how long, how high, and how deep his love REALLY IS. May you experience the love of Christ, though it is so great you will never fully understand it
Then you will be filled with the fullness of life and power that comes from God.
Now glory be to God! By his mighty power at work within us, he is able to accomplish infinitely more than we would ever dare to ask or hope.”
Ephesians 3:17-20 NLT